Tag: mindfulness

  • My Journey in Pastry School: Week 2, Getting To Know Me, Getting To Know Choux <3

    My Journey in Pastry School: Week 2, Getting To Know Me, Getting To Know Choux <3

    I’ve fallen a little behind in updating this blog — these first couple of weeks have been a whirlwind! Our days are now filled with six hours of kitchen time, and it’s been an adjustment, both physically and mentally.

    As I sit down to write about week two (while already in week four!) I realize I’ve grown accustomed to the unique exhaustion that comes from standing and learning lessons all day, squeezing in a quick lunch, and then heading straight into another class. But honestly, the learning is immense, and time has never felt so slow and fast at the same time. When I’m in the flow of learning something new and incorporating that into my own work, moving from one task to the next just feels like you’re completely present and energized.

    Anyway, I said I was going to write about Week 2, so on to that, which is choux, choux choux!

    Standard Choux Recipe:

    • Water: 125 g
    • Milk: 125 g
    • Butter (cubed): 100 g
    • Salt: 5 g
    • Sugar: 5 g
    • Flour: 150 g
    • Eggs: 250 g

    Method:

    1. In a saucepan, combine milk, water, butter, salt, and sugar. Let simmer.
    2. Once the mixture reaches a boil, remove from heat and add the flour all at once. Mix well with a heat-safe rubber spatula until fully incorporated. This mixture is called the panade.
    3. Return the panade to the heat and stir continuously to cook out excess moisture. The dough should pull away from the sides and form a cohesive mass.
    4. Transfer to a bowl and let cool slightly. Gradually add the eggs, a little at a time, mixing thoroughly after each addition. Stop adding eggs once the dough reaches the right consistency (more on that below).
    5. Transfer to a piping bag and pipe into desired shapes.
    6. Brush with egg wash or melted butter and bake at 180°C (350°F) for 20–30 minutes, depending on size. Check for doneness.
    Regular sized choux on the top tray brushed with butter and topped with nuts or dusted with icing sugar. Chouquettes brushed with egg wash and rolled in sugar on the bottom tray.

    Lessons From a Week of Choux

    I’ve attempted choux pastry before, very unsuccessfully, I might add, mostly because I didn’t understand just how dry the panade needed to be and how to be able to tell the batter consistency was just right. Practicing it every day for a week changed everything though! Here are some key lesson I learned that helped make my choux dough much better:

    1. Drying the Panade

    Cooking the flour over heat eliminates excess moisture in the dough. You’ll know it’s ready when it forms one smooth ball that doesn’t stick to the sides of the pan when you shake it. If the dough holds too much humidity, your choux won’t puff properly—it’ll stay flat instead of getting that signature hollow structure.

    2. Incorporating the Eggs

    Adding eggs back into the dough rehydrates it, but it’s crucial to go slowly. Eggs should be added in thirds, or even little by little, constantly checking the consistency. Our pastry instructor taught us three ways to tell when the dough is just right:

    • Ruban – The dough should have a smooth, ribbon-like consistency, similar to macaron batter. If it’s too stiff, it needs more egg.
    • Bec – When you lift the spatula or paddle attachment, the dough should form a “beak” at the tip.
    • Sillon – In French, sillon means the furrow left by a plow. Drag a spatula through the dough—if the line holds its shape before slowly folding in on itself, it’s ready. If it’s too stiff, it needs more egg; if it collapses immediately, it has too much.

    3. Venting the Steam

    This was new to me! Choux pastry creates a lot of humidity in the oven, which can prevent it from crisping up. To fix this, crack the oven door slightly (with a wooden spoon) 5 to 10 minutes into baking. This helps release excess moisture, resulting in a crispier shell.

    Getting ready for assembly of the little nuns, aka religieuse.

    With the same choux recipe, we created an array of pastries for the week.

    Filled with chantilly cream. Cross section inspected to make sure pastries were properly filled, as quality patisseries should be doing.
    Eclairs dipped in chocolate glaze and filled with chocolate pastry cream.
    Religieuse topped with a craquelin, filled with coffee pastry cream, dipped in coffee ganache, and then piped with creme au beurre.
    Classic Paris-Brest is the Best. Drizzled generously with praline and piped with hazelnut mousseline.

    Making choux in different forms for this week definitely felt like I unlocked a new level of achievement in the kitchen. We ended our pastry adventures that week with this excellent view:

    Apparently the best view of Paris is from Montparnasse Tower. That is because you can’t see… well, Montparnasse Tower. (There’s some French sense of humor for you).

    Til next post!

    Renee

  • A Morning of Gratitude & The Adventure Ahead

    A Morning of Gratitude & The Adventure Ahead

    I woke up today feeling good, feeling blessed even. It’s the kind of morning where everything just feels right, the air is crisp and I feel like my life is just flowing with an effortless ease despite the fact that nothing of import has happened today.

    With a fresh cup of coffee in hand, I stepped outside for a bit and settled into a perfectly designed outdoor chair. Bless whoever created this furniture masterpiece because it perfectly cushioned me as I watched birds twitter about and squirrels scamper through the towering redwoods on our backyard. Sunlight is streaming through the leaves, flickering as the trees dance this windy winter morning.


    To my left, the door leading to the back area is slightly ajar, and I spy our “plant corner”, a collection of plants thriving in a space my partner and I have carefully and lovingly created. He brings the organization and the system in our space, and I bring the natural and the cozy inside. Our home feels like a sanctuary for us both. It’s a life that feels rich and full. In this moment, I am overcome with a deep gratitude – gratitude for the stillness of this morning, I can savor my coffee, the beauty that surrounds me, and the undeniable feeling that I am taken care of and everything will be alright.

    The Journey Begins

    In just five days, I’ll be on my way to a different country, a different city. I will be by myself, embarking on a new adventure. The tuition is paid, my lodging is set. Everything is in place (well, I haven’t quite started packing so there is that…) and I only need to go, to experience, to savor. Every morning I am reminded that this is a gift to myself, that I am finally allowing myself to follow a dream and be carried by the flow of a new adventure in life. Even beyond the pastry training period, I know that there’s no need to worry. Life has shown me time and time again, that I am supported.

  • My Leap Into the Unknown: Daily Habits That Helped Me Reinvent My Life

    My Leap Into the Unknown: Daily Habits That Helped Me Reinvent My Life

    I got this question the other day: How are you able to take such a bold step, leaving a life of stability to pursue something more creative?

    It wasn’t a small change, mind you, but a potentially life-altering decision. I resigned from my job and I’m now getting ready to move temporarily to another continent, knowing absolutely no one there. And yet, it doesn’t feel scary to me. It feels exciting, not anxiety-inducing, because I tend to imagine good things that could happen while I am there.

    This wasn’t a spur-of-the-moment decision. It actually took me months to be ready. I checked in with myself every day, asking if I still wanted to go forward with this. I’d often tell myself, “You know, there’s still time to back out”, but after listening to the answer, I knew I didn’t want to. I wanted this experience. 


    The key for me to making this leap with excitement rather than fear lies in the practices I’ve built over the years. These habits didn’t just prepare me for this adventure; they’ve transformed how I view life itself. 

    Daily Practices That Helped Me Prepare

    Meditation: For over two years, I have meditated daily each morning. This practice quieted the negative thought patterns in my head and helped me cultivate a sense of peace and clarity. Mediation made space for my inner voice – the one encouraging me to take this leap- to be heard. 

    Gratitude: Gratitude became my foundation. Each morning I’d feel thankful for the simplest things as soon as I opened my eyes. At night, I’d recount the good things that happened during my day, letting myself bask in appreciation for these experiences, no matter how small and insignificant they may seem. For instance, just being thankful for having a sunny day, or having the ability to walk outside (things we normally take for granted) had an immense impact on my mood. 

    My gratitude journal with coffee first thing in the morning.

    Openness to New Experiences: I made a conscious choice to remain open to things. When opportunities came along, I didn’t automatically say “No” to them, even if they seemed to not be my cup of tea, on the surface. In fact I leaned into them, knowing that I could enjoy a new experience, I could meet new people. I accepted invitations and discovered little nuggets of information or delightful experiences along the way. These small acts of openness taught me that life often loves to surprise us in the best ways when we’re willing to say yes and give it a chance. 

    Mindfulness: I’ve practiced mindfulness to stop myself from ruminating about the past, or worrying about the future. When I caught my thoughts in a negative spiral, I’d pause, breathe, and focus on five physical things around me. Mindfulness became easier when I surrounded myself with beauty and nature. Over the years, I made our home a sanctuary, filled with plants, a space where birds visit, and places you can walk to and connect with the world. 

    Walking: Walking has become one of my favorite pastimes. In fact, I walk around our neighborhood twice a day, around a path my partner and I have affectionately labeled “The Loop”. It allows us to notice our surroundings, feel connected to our neighborhood, feel grounded, and sometimes find clarity when we’re pondering some problem at work. It also becomes quality time for us to have conversations while being outside and appreciating the place we live in. 

    One of the many beautiful sunsets I have enjoyed in my lifetime.

    Protecting My Energy

    Limiting Social Media and News Consumption: one of the most impactful changes I made was tapering down my social media usage in the past five year.s I noticed how “doom scrolling” left me feeling anxious and disconnected. I also stopped paying attention to traditional news outlets. The news we get now is designed to evoke fear and worry, often sensationalizing events as it causes more people to tune in. By stepping away, I freed up mental and emotional space to focus on what brings me peace and joy. Without someone constantly telling you that the world is a terrible and dangerous place, I can focus on more positive aspects of my journey. 

    Realizing We Are Spiritual Beings: I am coming to understand that I am a spiritual being having a human experience, not the other way around. This shifted my perspective entirely. We are meant to experience more joy, more laughter, more love. Life is not meant to feel like a constant grind, despite what society tells you; it should flow with ease and delight. 

    Why It’s Worth It

    By cultivating these habits, I’ve shifted from a mindset of fear and doubt to one of curiosity and excitement. When I imagine my future, I see opportunities for growth, learning, creativity and connection. Taking this step feels as natural as breathing for me, it’s the next step to the life I’ve been building. The life that I want to build is a life rooted in joy, love, and laughter. 

    For anyone thinking about a bold move for their future, my advice is — trust yourself. There is no one that would know the next step for your life, but you. No one else knows your journey. Build habits that can tamp down that noise from the external world and allow you to tune into your inner voice. Allow yourself to be open to joy, beauty, and love that life has to offer and live the life of your dreams.